When is it my turn?
When is it my turn to laugh?
When will I be happy or cry tears of joy?
When will I find that happiness? My comfort? My joy?
Trapped is what I am, and it’s where I’ll stay
I try bring kindness and positivity to all
Yet all I get is take.
There’s no give coming my way!
I say fake it till you make it but my motto let me down
I smile though it’s empty, laugh to no avail
Alone in my fears my sadness my insecurities
I just want to be seen I know my worth I try too hard
The pain creeps in, nothing fully numbs this anguish
So just because I’m smiling know it’s all a show
Behind that smile and the twinkle in my eyes
Deep down is a girl in pain
Not sure if I’ll ever be found