Your Day

It was your birthday yesterday I didn’t think to call I didn’t send a card I didn’t celebrate at all You once were my father Once someone I knew You ruined my life In so many ways When I just needed a father You chose to abuse Your words always vile Manipulative and cruel You […]

Nowhere

Sitting on the side of the road Looking off into the middle of nowhere Not sure which direction to take To go left the path is bright and cheery To go right looks dark and dreary No indication which path is right The light and cheery path could be deceptive While dark may mean appearances […]

Weak No More

Looking deep inside There is this fragile girl Asking why they didn’t want me Why they turned their backs The strength of who I have become Has pushed the fragile girl further down Silencening the thoughts The guilt that shouldn’t be there Stemming from years of manipulated truths Brainwashed into believing it was normal Shunned […]

Flowers

Sunflowers strewn out across the room Yellow brightens every corner Warmth fills throughout Looking out the window Flowers can be seen as far as the eye can see Fragrant scents waft in my senses Rain silently falling through the grey clouds Set against a bright brimming sun Pelting the ground as if tears falling from […]

Lost in Thought

Every time the bad comes I’ve always picked up the phone You were always there for me You were my shoulder to cry on You gave me so much hope My guidance my light We sensed with just a word Any grief the other had Mom I’m missing you like crazy I wish it all […]

No Longer

Yesterday was Fathers Day I felt no sudden desire to call you I felt no shame for not sending a card There was no urgency Absolutely no need Nothing could have implored me Instead I woke up and celebrated A man that actually cared A man that has raised my daughters In a way I […]

Fight or Flight

The desire to run will never be as strong As my desire to stay and fight Fight for my family Fight for what is right The fight this time Is the fight to heal So much pain So much sadness So much living loss I’m mourning in my own way Knowing there will never be […]

A Prayer to Lady Luck

Luck is a peculiar thing. While luck should be good, It can also be bad. One thing after another, No give in sight. Struggle and hardship, It’s a continuous plight. Though lessons are learned, The pain lingers greatly. Growth becomes enormous, The fight has given a wide berth. Bad luck over and over, The worst […]

Land of the Living

Its time Time to come back into the land of living Time to shake off all of the bad and start anew Time to move forward To be happy with all the blessing I truly have To put the pain aside to heal Its hard to say I need to move on Its hard to […]

Awaken New Day

The loss is so astounding Emptiness consumes Fear sets in Breath deep Thoughts swirl around What will normal ever be No going back Never to be the same Guilt sets in Just as quick as the rest Blame thrown around Gossip through the streets Memories tarnished No hiding beneath the sheets Layers and layers peeled […]