Your Day

It was your birthday yesterday I didn’t think to call I didn’t send a card I didn’t celebrate at all You once were my father Once someone I knew You ruined my life In so many ways When I just needed a father You chose to abuse Your words always vile Manipulative and cruel You […]

Nowhere

Sitting on the side of the road Looking off into the middle of nowhere Not sure which direction to take To go left the path is bright and cheery To go right looks dark and dreary No indication which path is right The light and cheery path could be deceptive While dark may mean appearances […]

Weak No More

Looking deep inside There is this fragile girl Asking why they didn’t want me Why they turned their backs The strength of who I have become Has pushed the fragile girl further down Silencening the thoughts The guilt that shouldn’t be there Stemming from years of manipulated truths Brainwashed into believing it was normal Shunned […]

**Choices**

Eyes open the darkness is so heavy Calling out but no one is there Feeling around for something familiar Clank, heaviness surrounds me Trapped, I gather the chains Looking for the end Every chain brings another I keep trying, do I even bother Voices reverberate the high walls I speak but nothing can be heard […]

No Longer

Yesterday was Fathers Day I felt no sudden desire to call you I felt no shame for not sending a card There was no urgency Absolutely no need Nothing could have implored me Instead I woke up and celebrated A man that actually cared A man that has raised my daughters In a way I […]

Fight or Flight

The desire to run will never be as strong As my desire to stay and fight Fight for my family Fight for what is right The fight this time Is the fight to heal So much pain So much sadness So much living loss I’m mourning in my own way Knowing there will never be […]

Another Day

Waking up each day anew Trying to keep my head above the waves They are crashing all around One thing after another Life’s challenges coming strong A regular doctors appoint Now everything seems wrong My baby’s heart has a murmur I truly hope it’s nothing The doctor looked concerned He silenced the room A pediatric […]

Land of the Living

Its time Time to come back into the land of living Time to shake off all of the bad and start anew Time to move forward To be happy with all the blessing I truly have To put the pain aside to heal Its hard to say I need to move on Its hard to […]