No Longer

Yesterday was Fathers Day I felt no sudden desire to call you I felt no shame for not sending a card There was no urgency Absolutely no need Nothing could have implored me Instead I woke up and celebrated A man that actually cared A man that has raised my daughters In a way I […]

Another Day

Waking up each day anew Trying to keep my head above the waves They are crashing all around One thing after another Life’s challenges coming strong A regular doctors appoint Now everything seems wrong My baby’s heart has a murmur I truly hope it’s nothing The doctor looked concerned He silenced the room A pediatric […]

Awaken New Day

The loss is so astounding Emptiness consumes Fear sets in Breath deep Thoughts swirl around What will normal ever be No going back Never to be the same Guilt sets in Just as quick as the rest Blame thrown around Gossip through the streets Memories tarnished No hiding beneath the sheets Layers and layers peeled […]

Lost

Ive spent a lot of time in pain Holding onto this pain so fiercly Always feeling like the scales of justice They must have just missed me As a child I prayed for salvation everyday As an adult I just pray to get through everyday As the tear drops have fallen I’ve stood back up, […]

Your Deathbed Alone: an ode to Jeff

I hate you and all you represent, The doted Father your time never spent, Verbal abuse our whole damn life. Manipulation is all you knew. Hate you always threw. Violent words and violent attacks, Ruptured ear drums wishes of death. Lies you spew as long as I can remember. Fighting til you can fight no […]

Won’t stop

Staring down the bottle of a glass of wine Your lies have become so devine You have balls I’ll give you that What you forgot is the innocent don’t hide With open arms I did welcome in Showed them I know I’m not without sin Open and honest that’s how I’ll be Your lies will […]

The Pain Within

I swear when the world starts to tumble it just keeps going. Like an earthquake with the multitude of aftershocks that follow To not only find out someone so close to you is sick. To find out that sickness hurt those closest to me even more. What happens then when you reach out to get […]

Handle with Care

How can one overcome so many years of sadness and heartache? How can one learn to shake off the last when it never goes away? How do you tell your loved ones that you are fragile and need a handle with care sticker tattooed right in. Things that are funny never feel that way. While […]

Blood means nothing

When reality hits and family is no more The truth is you realize they were never family I always was left out Never went on trips with the family on his side Never given the same stuff ever Always was treated like an outsider My whole life I felt alone and worthleas They did that […]