Your Day

It was your birthday yesterday I didn’t think to call I didn’t send a card I didn’t celebrate at all You once were my father Once someone I knew You ruined my life In so many ways When I just needed a father You chose to abuse Your words always vile Manipulative and cruel You […]

Weak No More

Looking deep inside There is this fragile girl Asking why they didn’t want me Why they turned their backs The strength of who I have become Has pushed the fragile girl further down Silencening the thoughts The guilt that shouldn’t be there Stemming from years of manipulated truths Brainwashed into believing it was normal Shunned […]

Lost in Thought

Every time the bad comes I’ve always picked up the phone You were always there for me You were my shoulder to cry on You gave me so much hope My guidance my light We sensed with just a word Any grief the other had Mom I’m missing you like crazy I wish it all […]

No Longer

Yesterday was Fathers Day I felt no sudden desire to call you I felt no shame for not sending a card There was no urgency Absolutely no need Nothing could have implored me Instead I woke up and celebrated A man that actually cared A man that has raised my daughters In a way I […]

Fight or Flight

The desire to run will never be as strong As my desire to stay and fight Fight for my family Fight for what is right The fight this time Is the fight to heal So much pain So much sadness So much living loss I’m mourning in my own way Knowing there will never be […]

Music of the Mind

Music is the key to it all Music touches each person differently Music helps to heal It helps to mold It brings so much inspiration Calms sadness when nothing else will Like a blanket giving off such warmth Something for each mood Something for each time So many options So many to choose My list […]

Land of the Living

Its time Time to come back into the land of living Time to shake off all of the bad and start anew Time to move forward To be happy with all the blessing I truly have To put the pain aside to heal Its hard to say I need to move on Its hard to […]

Awaken New Day

The loss is so astounding Emptiness consumes Fear sets in Breath deep Thoughts swirl around What will normal ever be No going back Never to be the same Guilt sets in Just as quick as the rest Blame thrown around Gossip through the streets Memories tarnished No hiding beneath the sheets Layers and layers peeled […]